Peanut Butter

It’s no secret that Jon and I are lovers of this precious nectar of the gods. Glorious goodness. As small children, I remember having serious conversations with Jon about if peanut butter will be in heaven.  I was more worried that if the rapture happened, would I have time to quick run to the store and get some on my way up to heaven?

 It’s safe to say we both probably consume some every day.  No judging. I know you secretly consume Nutella, Cheetos or Red Vines with an equal vengeance.  We recently realized we consume one large container Adams Chunky Peanut Butter every month.  No exception that February is a ‘short’ month. The question remains… does peanut butter land on the “emergency expediting” list?

TLC Winter Adventures

What is a better recipe for a winter adventure than a cabin, -34 degree weather and good friends?! We decided to “get out of town” for a Tanalian Leadership Center (TLC) staff retreat and head across the lake to our friends cabin. Thank you Bloms!!  Armed with chili and cinnamon rolls, I bundled up in my Alaska couture Carhardt coveralls and drove the Tundra across the lake to the “pre-warmed” cabin.  50 was as warm as we got the cabin, as we watched the frost level inside slowly lower.

Andrew, Eric, myself, and our friends Heather and Steve – we had some good brainstorming, prayer time and planning for the spring TLC program.  I am excited to have Heather and Steve as community partners with TLC, as Heather has worked with the camp for several summers and both have a heart to reach this age group.  We even took some time to soak in the sun on the deck the next morning!

The Tundra and I got in a fight in the morning…but it not starting made it a true winter adventure, so I rode back in Eric’s sled, enjoying the frigid snow the sprayed down my neck.

This past weekend I went into Anchorage with Andrew for a speaking engagement at Sand Lake Baptist Church, where Andrew used to attend.  He gave a wonderful message on discipleship, and we each spoke about the program and our roles with it. The weekend was also a blast, as I got to spend time with Sarah… who was on an Anchorage get-a-way weekend! It was a fun treat to go out to coffee, people watch, enjoy dinner, leisurely shop and see a MOVIE! We felt very spoiled.

Bundled up in the plane with our beaver hats, down coats and ear protection.  I think it will be on the cover of InSyle soon…just you watch.

It’s a crazy, wonderful life to have to fly through Lake Clark Pass to travel into Anchorage. The flight was one of the most beautiful one’s I’ve been on, without a single bump and epic winter views of mountains.  I imagined myself as a giant leaping over the mountain peaks, and sliding down the glacier slopes.

Have you gotten what you deserve?

I hate the word deserve.

You deserve a raise

You deserve some time off

You deserve new shoes

You deserve dark chocolate

You deserve a good husband

Or you don’t deserve to be treated like that…

Deserve: To earn merit, or have claim to because of actions, qualities or situations.

If I work hard, earn my way, change my circumstances, be independent, I have the right sit back and deserve something…  I’ve earned it, right?  I’m the only one in charge of my life.

What is that?  It’s gross! I have become my own god…  I’ve believed that I can ultimately change my destiny and believe I deserve a certain reward because of it… or a better life or what’s been done to me. I mean… I’ve been a really good person.  I deserve better. Ever thought that? Ummmhmmm…

I don’t deserve anything.  How selfish and prideful I am when I think I do deserve something! Yet I think it all the time!

But I can do nothing to deserve the biggest gift of all that has been freely given to me.  I don’t deserve the grace, the forgiveness, and the love that Jesus has lavished on my broken, mess of a life.  I deserve death, separation from the only thing that is good and perfect thing in this whole world. Yet, I’ve been given a new life.  A life of hope.  A fresh start.  A life that allows me to find JOY in forgiving, in not getting a raise, in working with hard people, in being single, in being hurt. It’s crazy! But true.  A life that understands what true grace is because I’ve been given more than I could ever earn…and that giving grace can bring joy.

I hate the word deserve. I love the word grace.  God’s grace.  So undeserved, so freely given… I need to be more grateful for this gift.   Less of me and what I think I deserve and more praise and thanksgiving for the new life in Christ I could never earn.

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”  Ephesians 2:8-10

So think twice before you use the word deserve this week…

Alaska’s River Wild Lodge

My good friends, Seth & Jeelan Kroenke, run Alaska’s River Wild Lodge, a first-class fly-fishing and adventure lodge in Port Alsworth.  I’ve had the privilege of helping develop a new website for their business.  If you’re interested in a custom trip, they will help you angle for trophy rainbow trout and salmon or explore the rugged Alaska frontier in style. Check in out!   www.lakeclark.com

www.lakeclark.com

Thirty Below

Every day for the last three weeks, I have woken up thinking … it’s got to be warmer this morning.  I make my way to the thermometer that reads the outside temp and gasp or groan out loud at the reality of negative double digits staring back at me.  Maybe it’s so cold the numbers are frozen inside the thermometer.

Nothing likes to work when it’s this cold. 4-wheelers don’t stand a chance, cars need to be plugged in or kept in a hangar and even snow machines have been breaking down left and right.  Praise the Lord, Jon and I have not have any house issues and it’s been toasty warm in our cabin. Most people have experienced frozen pipes, misfiring furnaces, a backed up sewer system and the list goes on.  The amount of time it takes to keep “life” going in cold weather is something you city-folk just can’t comprehend.  Word on the street is that it hasn’t gotten warmer than -8 since December 26th.  Besides one day when it blew 60 mph and went from -15 to +38 in only a few hours.  Stayed nice one afternoon and shot back down to -25. Freak. That’s been the average these days, settling in nicely at -20-ish.

But you get used to it after a while… like a screaming child, you kind of tune it out and move on with life.

I can’t handle staying in doors for long, no mater what the temp.  The days have been clear, “sunny” and beckoning me out. And when my transportation options are legs, skis or a bike, commuting anywhere in sub-zero temps gets… interesting.  The science behind the layers of clothing, thickness of socks, face coverage, beaver hat vs. wool hat and type of gloves becomes the most important decision I make in a day.  Besides what to eat for breakfast.

Once I get moving, my body temp goes up and my breath increases which causes condensation to instantly freeze on my face, hat, scarf. Snot freezes either in or out of my nose.  TMI?  It’s easy to get overheated then chilled from the frigid air.  Once you hit a warm house, you melt all over. Like a popsicle on a hot day. You can’t keep up with the dripping.  Everything breaks loose…it’s a watery mess.

Today as I biked down the runway at -35, but wearing so much gear, I felt much like I was running uphill carrying an elephant. Winded. Quickly.  I was picturing myself riding my bike in the summer wearing flip-flops, capris and a t-shirt, the sun beating down on me. Focus on summer, the one sunny day we had this summer. It helped for like 30 seconds.

There’s something I love about getting out despite the weather. Granted it’s just getting from one place to another around the village, but often it feels like I won an Olympic event.

With the days increasing, the sun is out in full force on the lake and you can definitely feel the warmth of the rays. Blessed sunshine. The sunsets are unreal and nothing beats the feeling of gliding alone on the vast lake… no matter the temp!  I’ve enjoyed magic hour on the lake several times this past week.

Finding contentment in it is important, as it’s something I have no control over. Seek to be thankful about the weather every day.  I am exceedingly grateful for bountiful firewood that creates a 109 degree difference from inside to outside the house.  And for my skis that help me keep my sanity.

My Future in Port Alsworth

Moving to rural Alaska was not in my plan.

In 2009, I went to Sierra Leone on a mission trip and the Lord pushed outside my comfort zone and called me use my talents in ministry.  I moved forward in faith toward serving unreached people groups in Africa.  The Lord used those steps to push me deeper into dependence on him for my identity, provision and direction in life.

I came to Port Alsworth, Alaska to visit my brother, in May 2010 and a friend, encouraged me to come work for the summer at Lake and Pen Air.  Shortly after, I met with Africa Inland Mission (AIM) and was accepted and given an assignment in East Africa.  However, the Lord was directing me to Alaska so I moved for the summer. After being here for a few months, I felt uncertain about moving forward with AIM that I asked to be removed from my assignment. Daily, I asked God if Alaska was where I should be serving.  Working at Lake and Pen Air allows me access to the surrounding villages and my heart has grown toward the great need for youth mentoring among Native Alaskans. This summer, the Lord answered my prayers and made it evident that my talents can be used right here in Port Alsworth!

Tanalian Bible Camp (TBC) in Port Alsworth has been serving the youth in 33 villages in Southwest Alaska for 48 years.  An extension to the camp, the Tanalian Leadership Center (TLC) began this year.  TLC exists to mentor Alaska young adults (18-22) by training them to grow in every area of life; arming them with spiritual strength to stand and serve the Lord; and equipping them with practical skills necessary to live productive lives in rural Alaska.  Students will move to Port Alsworth for nine months, live in community with spiritual mentors and career mentors to help them accomplish goals and challenge growth in every area of their life.

The Lord uses TBC in amazing ways providing a light in the ever-present darkness experienced in villages across Southwest Alaska.  The oppression is heavy in these childrens’ lives and the cycle of abuse, lack of education and low employment will continue to be perpetuated if lives are not changed and leaders are not formed. It’s only through the Lord working in these students’ lives that they can be changed.  Port Alsworth is a light among the darkness of villages, providing them with a place to gain a foundation in truth and hope for their future. The goal for the 2012-2013 program is to mentor 5 women and 5 men and several invitations have been extended to prospective students.

I will be the full-time Development Director for TBC and TLC. One of the reasons I feel such a peace about this job is that I will be utilizing my talents in this capacity to bring financial, marketing and administrative support to TBC and TLC. Goals in my first year include creating promotional materials, relationship building, grant writing and beginning to generate income for TBC and TLC. Though not a direct mentor, I’ll be pouring into the lives of the students through teaching, team excursions, and living life with them.  It is urgent for me to begin my position as TLC is starting from zero with financial support and TBC has never had a staff member dedicated solely to partnership development.  TLC won’t be able to fully function until I am in position and support is coming into the program.

Where am I now in this process?  I have begun support raising and sharing with people about this ministry.  I need prayer, monthly financial support and wisdom as this exciting new adventure unfolds. Financial support covers my personal expenses to live in Port Alsworth and minister through TLC. My goal is to be fully support by May 2012, but will begin working part-time as support allows.

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I may not have ever thought I would live or flourish in Port Alsworth, Alaska, but I can only give my God the glory for placing me in a place where I can serve him with my talents and fully enjoy my life. I am so glad I did not follow my own plans… what an amazing journey I would be missing out on!

2011 in Photos

Enjoy my reflection of 2011 through photos.

I took 7 minutes before midnight last night to journal through some deep feelings and will express them later in an interpretive dance and acrostic poem.  Stay tuned.